In community we can heal parts of us that we cannot heal alone. Yet, some of us are terrified to walk into a yoga class, let alone open your heart to a room full of strangers. But, we are wired for connection, so how are we surviving? Ot maybe we are surviving, but not thriving? 

How many of these can you relate to?
"I don't need anyone." "I'm just fine thanks." "I'm afraid I will get hurt." "I am afraid I won't be able to relate to others." "I don't trust other women." "I just like being alone." 

Those of us that have encountered hurtful experiences or are sensitive to social gatherings might think of community as a place of fear or exhaustion. I have never felt like I belonged- anywhere. (Until I joined my healing tribe.) I always felt different and weird. And when I reflect of all the versions of myself I just see a lot of frozen sadness, as I felt like I needed to protect myself which made me appear stand-offish or not engaged.

I have had this yearning to belong since I can consciously remember. I have no culture to belong to or ancestors that I know much about. I believe we all want to belong. From a very young age we are taught in school to do the same thing everyone else is doing. And if we don't fit we know it is uncomfortable. (And oh how we stray away from all things uncomfortable.) So we mold and shape until it feels okay. This is where this starts, where we send parts of us to the island of "disconnect". In order to fit in, we have to shape shift the parts of us that don't. Even thought those parts could be really freaking awesome, we leave them out on the island until we become adults. We start asking questions...who am I? Who is my authentic self? When did I change this part of me? The REAL me is always here underneath it all. My big soul hasn't ever left. it just took some time for me to find her again. 

Hello dear Soul,

​How is your breath right now??? 
What if you made it a little deeper + more full?
What if you breathed right into your heart? 
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Your heart is a big bright sunshine full of love and light and you can access it anytime by placing your hand there and breathing into it….

When we touch the heart, we become human. We spend so much time in survival mode and in our heads that we are not connected to the one space that remembers our oneness. So many teachings out there focus on liberating the mind and in that space we can even intellectualize our feelings!?!

The major self-work is liberation of the heart and our breath supports us heart-coherence. 

The spirit of breath connects us with the aliveness and present moment like no other healing modality that I have experienced. It has exceeded my healing capacity far beyond the years of thinking my way out- working with the mind- talk therapy, creating mindset shifts, writing affirmations, and journaling (those are great tools but I needed more). I wanted to heal on a cellular level and I wanted my heart to experience actually loving + living for this short time we are here. I was ready and open to dancing with fear and more than ANYTHING I wanted to be FREE in my body so badly that nothing stood in my way. I was moving forward scared to death and full of courage and I needed support to witness my becoming. I found a caring community of angels dressed as humans to hold sacred space for my unfolding. 

When I started learning breathwork in 2015, I would breathe with a partner and she would hold space for me and I for her- as our teachers observed. We did this for 3 1/2 years! My breath partners name is Tiffany and she has held some of the most sacred and vulnerable healing spaces for me. When I leave the planet she is on my list of people who I will never forget and has healed me in ways I can’t even explain!! She held my hand, she whispered “breathe cassie, breathe”! And created this heart coherent space for me to laugh, cry, stomp, yell, throw things, and enter into a space of altered consciousness that moved me from disconnection to reconnection. 

This is HOW SACRED this work is.

Relearning how to breathe, breathing into my body, and allowing all of that tension and constricted energy to move changed everything about my life. I’m not joking! My anxiety decreased, I started taking up more space, stopped holding my breath, moved stuck energy that resided deeply in my trauma body. I got to practice being with the surrender for she who is my body needed to create new patterns of letting go of control and perfecting. 

Everything changed and I could write a book on a collection of my experiences!! As no two sessions are the same. 

I thank the Spirit of Breath, my amazing teachers, and my dear friend Tiffany who created safety and gentleness where my armor could fall off little by little. 

Big Love, 
Cassie

I wanted to offer all of you an imaginary pause button. It is in the palm of your hand. You can see it as big or small and whatever color you'd like. When you push it, it will freeze-frame your life for a moment so you can check in with where you are today. You can even imagine me or someone else asking you "how are you doing?" 

Then check in with your breath and see if you can take it a little deeper (letting your tummy stick way out!) As we notice our breath, we signal our brain to start to slow things down. This can be quite different than the lifestyles we live in a world that runs really busy and plays to our ice queen, toughen up, and push through it all life script. 

So you can practice pushing pause...
 Pausing to notice. 
 Pausing to scan all way to the feet. 
 Pausing to bring the awareness of this moment in time on October 22, 2021. 
 Pause and have a chat with your body...

As I breathe in, I honor you, my body. And as I breathe out, I give you a new sense of release + reset. As I breathe in, I hear what you need. As I breathe out, I give you permission to move or make a sound. 

And when you are ready you can un-pause and come back...This is the story of our ability to create a new pattern + the beginning of noticing when we need to push pause. In a couple of weeks, I am offering a pause button to explore some different experiential practices to allow for your analytical + overthinking mind to take a vacation. At this time on the planet, the ability to move through things is very present and at a greater capacity, (so I know I want to take advantage of that!) but we have to slow down to make room for the connection to take place.

We are not taught how to slow down, so creating space by opening to new experiences already sets the ball rolling with your intention to do so. 

​A-ho.

There is something truly magical about October in Kansas. Growing up in a small town, fall had such nostalgic energy (and still does). It feels like it opens this portal to a direct connection to the child parts who were more connected to nature + open to change. For child me, it meant homecoming pep rallies, leaf piles, Halloween parades, and you finally get to wear the clothes you bought for back to school because it's finally cool enough for long sleeves + pants. For some of us, the child parts of us remember a simpler life and can breathe in the excitement of change that fall brings in.

"Simple" is my current mantra and it has been amazing how useful it has been to help me return home to myself. When I can feel myself accelerating or in chaotic energy I ask myself, "how can I make this simpler?" Oh, how our nervous systems like simple!! Especially those of us that are sensitive!! So, I ask you, how can you simplify your life? How can there be more space than there is now?

The biggest space makers I have found are:
1.) Working with boundaries and 2.) The act of releasing. I mean releasing anything that has a heaviness - old clothes, books, stored emotions :) anything that is hanging out and not moving energy. Those of you who are "sensors" know that "thud" of a feeling. Does it feel good to your body? When we open to "noticing" our lives change.

Holding space for your unfolding, 
​Cassie

“Who am I?” 
“What am I doing here?” 
“I feel like I don’t belong here.”
“I have always felt like there is something big I am supposed to be doing here.”

These are the thoughts I hear the most from the women I work with. Being a highly sensitive woman in a world that has not been supportive of our natural strengths and abilities, forces us to armor up and seek control. I mean seriously...how else could we have made it in a not-so-sensitive world with parents who didn’t see our truth or in school systems that made us follow the leader and disengage our creativity? We got the wrong memos with a heaping side of deeply rooted & distorted ideas and visions about who we are. I think about it like we were toned down into a sepia filter when you should have been seen through a rainbow filter!!! So how do we turn the colorful lights back on?

I keep a set of beautiful stacking dolls on a shelf in my office as a reminder of how complex we really are. Every version & age of who you “be” lives within your body. Every moment of joy and every moment of pain. Every time your tender heart was broken and every time you were told your sensitivities were wrong. We have all the layers and stories swirling around in our subconscious and in our cells. 

So where do we even begin? I have found that when we only shine the flashlight inside without significant support, it activates our inner army of protection. (That is partly why we feel like it is just too much! Because they have full control of not wanting things to send us over the edge.) I remember thinking often...what exactly am I scared of? When I realized that I had a cauldron full of fears, I could then start to see that some were mine, but many were my parents, and so many were inherited from a world full of memos that said I should always be scared.

Take a moment and look over your life story and see really what it has been like as a sensitive soul in the energy of fear. Our little nervous systems were not equipped for processing a world like this. So what did you do when it was too much? Most of us freeze our energy because it gives a sense of control and because of the times when we really gave space to our big feelings, we were often shamed for it. So we started young holding it in, gulping it down, turning off our lights. We learn to survive. 

Please pause for some quick facts...as an HSP you are more affected by the subtleties of what the world news is saying, what horror movies are imprinting, and what your mom says is true, because she heard it from a friend. We carry fear differently than most do. We sense the layers behind the words. It is important for you to honor that it the truth of who we be. 

So what am I scared of inside me? I have many different parts that are scared of being vulnerable, being hurt, exposed, finding a skeleton that I am not even aware of! But what I was really scared of was loosing control. There are stories enmeshed in my cells that say something is wrong with me, so much is wrong with the world around me, so it is just better to stay gripped to a sense of safety, however that looks for you. One of my teachers would then chime in here and say..."So, how is that working for you?" "How much life are you feeling from that place?" "How much of your soul gets to move through you when fear is driving the car?" "How does your body respond to always having to be in control?" 

When we move around the inner furniture it shakes things loose that our minds tell us we don’t want to know, face, or express...because life is too much, we are too much, this is all too much...and what the mind doesn’t tell us as it avoids our inner hygiene because of it only overwhelming us, is that creating a new narrative actually frees us deeply to make more space for who we really are. It is like cleaning out the basement full of shit you don't need or want to hold onto anymore, so you can create a healing temple in that space instead. 

We are complex- there is no doubt about that. We are relational, energetic, emotional, and physical- human transformers. When we are not connected to our emotions, we can not be connected to our little girls that live inside waiting to be seen, heard, and expressed. When fear is driving, we constrict our bodies, hold our breath, and we only have a fine line of availability to be with our Wise Self...our intuition. This innate wisdom & higher self version of who we truly are, she speaks simply, softly, strategically. Truth is clear & simple. The answers to who you are reside in the beautifully weaved, invisible garment that you are made of. 

Your soul has waited all through out time to be here right now. 

This space is dedicated to bringing all of us misfits and sensitive souls together. You may have the energy of a Lightworker, Healer, Old Soul, Empath, Indigo, or Starseed, and you are those with the burning passion to change the world!! I am here to tap on your door and support you in  illuminating your gifts. When we attune to ourselves, there is a rippling vibration that affects everyone around us. So many of you are this light by just BEING who you are. But, so many of us don't know who we are because the world was not meant for us to shine our lights. As the earth turns on her lights, it is activating us to want to shine our lights even brighter. To become the natural born advocates of the heart that we truly are.  

Together, I want to support you to create a new vision of who you really are. A journey of self-discovery into being and doing what you love. A new story line that consists of being deeply supported by a community of others who can relate to you. A tribal essence where we can be each others biggest fan, hold the torch for each others illumination and walk hand and heart forward to assist with the awakening that is happening on the planet. 
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​When we don't fit into the box of society, we start contorting ourselves to be anything other than who we really and truly are. We armor up, break off, and lock up our gifts, just so we can "fit" or at least try to make an attempt to. Most of us were raised in systems that did not see us through the magical heart-shaped glasses of who we truly are. So, we learned early to make ourselves smaller and maybe even shut off to our gifts.

In this space, we get an opportunity to begin re-learning what it means for our souls to be in community. We are wired for it. We are also hard-wired for healing. We get the choice to re-write the story by EXPERIENCING our own truth, building inner-trust, and welcoming the innate wisdom that lies within us. When we are in the truth of our experiences, everyone is Illuminated! That is why community is so divinely sacred... Just like my teachers taught me, when one of us gets a healing, we all get a healing. 

​I want to support you in finding your healing tribe to walk beside in your journey. I invite you with an open heart, open mind and open arms...let's become better humans, because we are the ones carrying the torch lovelies! We are the the leaders of the heart. We are the beings moving the energy of the planet into harmony. The time is now. The world needs you to be who you truly are. So...Let's get to work :) ​

When I was asleep in my body and offline energetically, I was a school counselor and I remember the full moon energy as chaotic and something teachers would say in passing. Something like, "oh it must be a full moon today," and that is the reason children were acting out. Children are awake, aware, and still connected in ways that numb adults can't understand. I really got it once I began growing up inside, thawing out my frozen inner children and moving along on my inner journey. I embodied that the more awake and aware I am, the more sensitive I am. (Which has its ups and downs, but I still choose it over numb any day!)

Numerous full moons I awake with this electric charge in my body. I will be vibrating head to toe. I have had the light of the moon wake me up, just to connect with it. It is POWERFUL energy! I have formed a new relationship with the moon and its magical powers and celebrate the intensity that comes with my energy body being heightened, my emotional body usually also being heightened, and work on keeping myself grounded to earth energy. (Just this morning, I went and stood barefoot on the grass for a while to regulate my energy body.)

In my astrology chart, my moon sign is in Virgo in the 9th house. This is something new for me, as I am a child in the world of astrology, but I have found it has brought a deeper sense of meaning in understanding my sensitivities. So if you haven't already, download the app "Time Passages" and plug in your birthdate and time. (It is free knowledge!) Then take a moment to read your moon sign. 

My planets chart says my moon sign is in Virgo and as I read it, via the Time Passages App, I am just taken back by the powerful information, so I wanted to share...

"The Moon in the Ninth House represents emotional sensitivity in the areas of higher ideals and visionary philosophy. You may be something of a dreamer and tend to romanticize your emotions...(Ughhh yes...) Your philopshy is based on your feelings and sensitivity to your ideals regarding the superconscious realms...You constantly study your experiences to redefine your own philosophy about life experiences, which may be the basis of your own vision of religion. Your philosophical attitude may seem difficult for other people to understand. You may suffer from a utopian ideal of wanting to feel good all the time which can cause you suffering. You tend to be a dreamer yet your dreams may reflect truths about reality when you are in tune to your higher awareness of consciousness. You love travel and are likely to take many journeys. You are a natural teacher. You have a strong need to share your philosophy of life with other people. In this way, you can share your redefined imaginative and creative insights and show others how to refine their inner visions along with you..."

WHAAAAATTTTT! This is seriously me on all levels. I am a born teacher, an investigator who wants to redefine everything I come across that is in this healing arena and I want to know the truth, so I can share the truth. I want everyone to do their inner work so as a collective we are connected to our hearts and our power. I don't conform to a label or a section of what the world has told me I need to be. I want to be myself and I see through the lens of growth and change. I don't like anything that makes me feel trapped or needing to drink the kool-aid of the American propaganda dream. But I am also a big time dreamer and heart-felt sensitive. You may say I am a dreamer, but I really am, and I know I am not the only one. 

When I was in graduate school, we had to write out own counseling philosophy and my teachers just thought I was aloof with all my ideas and wonderment. When actually, I really didn't feel what they were ever telling me was "the way" it had to be done was the truth. Even though there is different theories and scientific research that says all the things- blah-blah, my heart was like nope we are so much bigger and more complex than this shit. I titled my paper Dr. Jones's Kaleidoscope Theory and wrote page after page around how I thought things could look differently than the ways I had been told they should. At my core, these are truths about who I am and how fun to let the moon and its wonderment, continue to help me investigate my gifts of being sensitive and powerful. 

You can create your own Full Moon Rituals...

• Right now in the first day of October with fall energy... meditate on what you want to let go of to make room for the new. 
• Make some Moon Tea!
• Sit your stones and crystals outside for some moon love!
• Give yourself grace and compassion that you may be more tender today.
• Put your bare feet on the earth and breathe!!!

May you be an active participant in the life you dream of.

Much Love,
Cassie
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Today is a day here on earth and in the cosmos that there are huge energy shifts happening... can you feel it? Today is also the day that this dream of creating a sacred space to bring awakening souls together to do their inner work has manifested into fruition.

So, for a moment imagine that YOU are a new computer that was excitedly taken out of the packaging and turned on. You notice you already have the Microsoft Suite of "Family patterns and issues" already installed. Over time you download new apps, never deleting anything, just filling up the space, allowing some to continue to use all your data and run constantly in the background. You also have a drop down menu with how you think you are supposed to do things and how to make the right choices and decisions (even though we decided that this is how we should do it because that is how my mom did it or how I have been shown is the "right way"). Another drop down option is something that we added in adolescence when we thought avoiding our issues was easier by drinking that or smoking that. There is also the option for how to react or feel the feelings...do we get mad or we have the automatic redirect of "we don't get angry because it doesn't look good on us women". You get my point?? This body is our computer system and it is jammed pack and soaked full of other peoples stuff and outdated defaults. IT NEEDS AN UPGRADE. It got the wrong memo on so many levels!!!

So, for my first ever blog post (yay) I am announcing my manifesting magical intentions around what I am holding a vision of for this new space for introspection and growth.

I see sensitive people who are awakening to knowing there has to be more than "this" mental, depressed and anxious life, coming together to support one another with open hearts and open minds.

I see when how we begin to deprogram our inner computers and open more space up to actually add new apps to what we want and desire life begins to feel way more purposeful!!!!

I see you reconnecting with your beautiful imagination and using this space to be a top resource for your inner journey.

I see you using this space to pause and take a deep breath in as you connect to the feeling of making a warm drink.. feeling the warmth in your hands and then your nose catches the aroma...breathe it in. Allowing space and time to begin sipping slowly. We need to reconnect to our sense and the pause. The savoring of moments and the noticing of our emotions and energy. 

I see you connecting with your body that is so full of wisdom. The body is our greatest teacher and I am here to help you regenerate and restore your connection. It is with the body we can move out of fear and into the safety of exploring our inner landscape, pulling weeds, planting flowers and trees, and making the choices that we want to make instead of being lead by old downloads and programming. 

I see you knowing THY SELF as the biggest gift you can give yourself, your partner, your children, and all the past versions of you waiting to be heard, seen, and healed. They are like having you own inner team waving a banner, flags, and jumping up and down with excitement of what they know you can be! Feel them all supporting you to awaken and grow! 

I know at my core that your unique essence is deeply needed on the planet and you have gifts that no one else has. And I am so ready to support you! ​