They say that i'm a dreamer...

“Every time you don’t follow your inner guidance, you feel the loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deafness.” - Shakti Gawain

I had forgotten how to dream. I realized one day that anything I had dreamed of “becoming” wasn’t in a job description or a “major” or a degree at a college. I like doing many things but none of them looked like the boxes I had been given. 

I am a bridge to something more. A Radical Ambassador for you to remember and recover the magic that lives inside of you. A torch holder to bring to light who you really are. I’m a Heart  Healer. A Storyteller. A Soul Mama to other Empaths. A bridge between worlds. So there was not a path for me. The journey has been the path. Every puzzle piece, every intuitive hit, everytime I had to listen to follow change that was going to be painful- I keep following my heart.

Once I stopped trying to keep it all together and started healing, unfreezing, and feeling my body again - I realized how much of my magical self I had toned down to “be normal”. To try to feel a sense of belonging or not look like I’m too much. I have known since I was a child that I am not here to play small but I live in this very sensitive body that was so scared of hurting peoples feelings and getting a bad review if I create something. So I have had to do a LOT of inner work (and always will) with these parts and the walls I have put up to stay safe. 

As a child the only image of a job I wanted was to be like Oprah. She (and Mr. Rogers) were the storytellers of my childhood and my first therapists! She embodied a deep curiosity and listening ear that I saw myself in. She brought light to the pioneers and the change makers on the planet. I still want to be her. I feel that dream inside of me to create bigger change. 

Today I spent 3 hours in a recording studio just to play with the nudge from my intuition that it’s time to move towards this dream. It was so FUN!! And such a beautiful feeling to take the step on a path that feels right in my body. Eventually it will become a podcast but today it’s just the first step. It’s those steps that build capacity in our nervous systems. Our nervous systems are directly linked to our sense of safety which is linked to our inner child. The creative energy inside of us is also the doorway to remembering our magical inner child who is waiting to be seen, values, and her magic excavated. I said to her today as I hit record…”Here we go sweet pea! Let’s make some magic so we can invite everyone to remember their magic!”  And yes I’m grinning ear to ear. #theysayimjustadreamer (I can't be the only one ;)